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Originally Posted by Pattie Tears & Prayers sent your way, I just can't imagine.... Every time I read an update on Lil'Maddie I kept thinking I would be more then a "lil mad" at the vet, but who knows I haven't any experience with this, maybe they did right. I wanted my Chloe to be a Mommy one day, now I am not so sure I could be as strong or as brave as you were. Keep your chin up and your eyes on the road in between your trips to visit Lil Maddie at the AngelBreeders home. At a time like this it seems it would be easy to daydream while driving. Praying for you & yours  Pattie |
It's crazy you said that about keeping my eyes on the road. I almost had 2 accidents yesterday (daydreaming) before I told myself I just needed to go home. It's crazy how a little creature can touch your life so much. I knew she was a huge part of my life when she was here, but the emptiness without her is sometimes unbearable.
Anyone who is thinking of breeding your pets...I would
seriously think twice and 100 times about it. Take a good look into her eyes and ask yourself if you're willing to risk her sweet little life. I know people told me this before, but I was stupid and thought it wouldn't happen to me. Even though I didn't mean for her to get pregnant when she did, I kick myself and want to pull my hair out in anger at myself for having the idea of breeding her eventually in the first place. What did I know? All the research and books and videos cannot prepare you enough for what mother nature decides to do in the end.
I got Maddie and her pups ashes today. We had her and her pups cremated together. I am glad to have her back here with me. I hated the fact that she was alone. We're getting this really sweet urn made for them. I am going to post it shortly so you all can see it. It has been a hard day, but I just think about going to see the little girl tomorrow and it cheers me up.