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Originally Posted by manolos mom  Dont know why, maybe I just dont know how to Love. I thought I gave them everything they ever needed and put my every need last because I brought these 2 ladies into this world and knew this was my job and first priority.
Not even a Mothers day card and found out they spent the day with their father who was never around growing up.
Dont know why I am bringing this up but I guess I am just feeling sad. It was hard being a single parent but they always had my love, food, shelter, clothes. Made sure they grew up with a religious background. Dont know what I have done but maybe I just suck at being a mother. |
There is no way I could believe these words, Lisette. I've read your posts since I've been a member of this forum, and you are a person who cares a great deal about others and loves very deeply. When I read your post, what came to my mind was what Carolyn wrote. My parents divorced when I was thirteen, and I know firsthand the conflicted feelings that children have. It was better for all of us (three girls), but my sisters have struggled with trying to gain my father's love all of their life. I was so close with my mother that perhaps her love was powerful enough for me and shielded me from the hurt. I know it still affected me despite the closeness I had with my mom. My sisters never got a chance to tell my mom how much they loved her because they were too young to realize their mistakes when my mother passed away at a young age. Sadly, it still haunts both of them today. Your daughters probably feel very secure in your love, but they are probably chasing their father, hoping to gain his love and acceptance. I am so sorry that they hurt you. I believe they will come to the realization one day as my sisters have. I don't think one can ever forget the love and sacrifices that a mother makes. You taught your daughters the important lessons in life and about love. It is in them, and they will feel it and live it sometime in the future. I have lived thirty five years without my mother, but I live each day as she were with me, and I understand very well the lessons she taught me about matters of the heart. Give it time with your daughters. They will learn the truth.