[April15]

Thank you, to you all for your beautful messages you have left here on this thread for me, each and everyone means so much to me and my family and your heartfelt words have truly touched our hearts.

I have tried to write before to thank you but just like now the tears overcome me so much that I find it so difficult to type.

We had my Baby girl creameted and it took a couple of weeks to get her home and it was a sad day when we went back to the vets to collect her as we relived her last time there which was painful and we felt just so very sad and lonely.


We were going to scatter her ashes on the park where she loved to go for a walk but found we were not able to part with her and have decided that she will be buried with me whenever that day comes as I just love her so much and even in death can't be parted from her and it feels right that she stays with us and somehow just knowing she is here is comforting to us all.


Gradually bit by bit it is getting easier, but you know yourself the house just does not feel the same and we all miss her little ways, the cuddles and lovings that she gave, letting me know when someone was at the door or passing by and often when I am cooking I still expect to turn around and see her sitting there waiting for a titbit for being so good.


I have not been able to move her bed off the landing as yet where she liked to sleep when I was in my office...I guess when the time finally comes it will be another heart wrenching moment.


Sometimes I think I hear her about the house but I guess that is only natural.


So many people have suggested getting a new dog but I know I am not ready yet and if you knew my Baby, she would be so very jealous I feel, as she always liked to be number one We plan to move house in a few years and perhaps then, as somehow now it would not feel right to bring a new dog into this house. I probably sound very silly but it is just a feeling I have now about it and my son feels the same and he too is still missing her so much as she was such a huge part of his life, even my husband bursts out crying when we talk about her...we are such a sad bunch.


Thank you again for all your support as knowing others can understand what a huge a loss it is to lose such a loving pet has meant so much.