 I know how you feel
My furry friend of 15 years had to be put down in Dec of 2009. I had a terrible experience as a child with the sight of death kind of shoved in my face. Since that time it has been an awful thing to have to face. Human or animal friends death have been unbearable to me.
Maybe you could go with someone you trust. Just plan on going as far as you can with your beloved. Maybe you can only go to the waiting room but at least you will be near. I know I was a mess and in no shape to go through with the whole ordeal. But my darling pet was needing to be put to rest and someone who he trusted went with him. They stayed with him through the whole thing and the staff was wonderful with him. It was very peaceful and over rather quickly. Sometimes things we build up in our minds are much worse in the mind than they are in reality. Unfortunately, I waited longer than I should have, because of my own fears, to put my loved one out of his suffering. I have learned a lot from this ordeal. Don't feel guilty. Your doing what is needed. I hope you can make peace with this and know it is best. Your furry friend will be at peace in a wonderful place with no more suffering. |