i am so very sorry you lost your best friend. it has been almost 7 months since my special little girl nika passed. i miss her every day and think of her all the time. i feel like her presence is with me because the love we shared will never die. the memories will always be there and nothing will ever take those away. i still remember the look of love in her eyes and our special routine. i would give anything to hold her and get my nose kisses by her again. the one year anniversary had to be very hard for you. every sunday morning i feel that terrible pain all over again. it doesn't seem to get any easier for me without her. i have made several memorials to her that help make me feel a little bit better. i created a 72 page story / picture book of her from walgreens.com full of pictures of her from the day she was born up to her last days with pet quotes and poems. the vets office made me a pawprint impression memorial of her when she passed that i put in a shadowbox frame with her picture and some other momentos. her belongings, collar, clothes, angel wing harness, her baby blankie, and some toys are still everywhere in my house. i havent had the heart to put them away anywhere. i can still smell her from her snuggie that she loved to wear when it was cold. my mom got me a necklace from bradford exchange that is a always in my heart locket engraved with her name and has a little yorkie inside that i wear all the time. she will live forever in my heart and will always have her own special place there. nothing in the world could take her place. that being said, i have her mother zowi who is 10 now and i dont know how i wouldve survived losing nika without the comfort of having zowi. she experienced the loss herself too and misses nika as much as i do and i know it. when i sit here crying, she knows why and comforts me so well. all this being said, i adopted a 5 month old yorkie puppy from a humane society who was taken from a puppy mill. she has brought so much joy and happiness into our lives and has bonded with zowi better than i ever thought. i know nika would be happy knowing that i took in a little one who needed to be loved and have a forever home. the love i have for nika will always be hers and hers alone. she would want me to be happy. she spent her life making sure of that and gave me so much love. pixe the new puppy and zowi also have thier own special love and place in my heart and always will. adopting pixie has helped me greatly. i know nika is in the laps of the angels now and i believe she sent pixie to me, still trying to make me happy even in her passing. nika is my little angel now smiling down on me always. i know we will be together again forever someday, as you will be with your sweet muffin. when you're ready, bringing home another baby to love will not take away from your love with muffin but will bring a new love in to your life that will be just as special but in its own way. i am glad nika and i shared our lives together touching each others hearts in such a special way even though losing her has been unbearable i am happy that we had the time we had. my life was better because of her and will be changed for the better forever. pixie has such cute little crazy puppy quirks that make me laugh and bring so much happiness. please do not deny yourself the love of another. nothing can bring back those we have lost, i am sure muffin would love to see you give such love and care to another. muffins memory will live on forever no matter what. when you're ready i think you're the kind of person who should bring home another baby to love and give such a great life as you did for muffin. i know how hard it is to lose your best friend. i'm sure muffin and nika are playing together at rainbow bridge as our little angels smiling down on us always. keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and sending you a hug! hope to see an update soon on your thoughts of a new family member... |