I'm so sorry about little Cody.
I think the guilt will eventually go away when you've had a chance to grieve. It sounds like you made your decision for Cody's benefit - not your own. The selfish thing would have been to try to keep him going despite his suffering.
I felt the same way when I had to put my last two pets to sleep -- in fact I was so distraught, I posted on my facebook page that I had just murdered my cat. You know intellectually that you did the right thing, but it takes a while for your heart to catch up.
I hope you will soon reach the day when you can think about little Cody and smile instead of crying. |