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Originally Posted by Bitsy

It was a little hard to go there today. The situation with the first Peyton was so heartbreaking. I thought about him so much today. They did the going home review with me in the same exam room that I was in with the first Peyton. Leaving Peyton overnight would have been more upsetting because I left the first Peyton there and never saw him again. But, I feel the first Peyton is in a better place now and is smiling down on the new Peyton. And leaving WITH Peyton today was incredible. When I walked up to the building carrying Peyton, I had such a sense of deja vu (sp?) I whispered to Peyton that no matter what, I would take him home eventually.

Everyone was so nice and helpful and knowledgeable at Purdue. It is possible
to let go of most of the bad feelings I associate with that place because of how great they are.

I knew you would be feeling a gamut of emotions today but thankfully you received great news from the specialist. Even though you knew it would be difficult for you to go to Purdue, you put those feelings aside to do what was best for your baby. It demonstrates what a great and devoted mom you are, and we all should strive to always do the very best that we possibly can for our babies. You spoke so highly of Purdue, and I'm so glad that you were able to take little Peyton home today. Still, if you need help with all of these feelings that were stirred up, there are so many of us that truly care.