I so know how you feel - my Toffee has been gone 2 years, and I still can see her little face and remember the 15-1/2 years we had together. She was my baby....but.....I now have 2 new babies. I love them as much - I have so much to share - a wonderful loving home - and I think of how much I have made 2 new little furbabies loved and happy. Perhaps you could open your home and heart to a new little one of your own, and make make a wonderful life for a lucky puppy!!!!