[Kathryn_V]

Ok... I wrote to the breeder asking about the link... I expressed my concerns and asked about testing before I fly out to pick her up. I will follow up with a call in the morning as it is almost midnight here and even later there. I really am beside myself now... I was so very excited about her homecoming, but now I am just sick over it. Should I be looking for another breeder? It took me months of looking to find her.

I really don't think I will be able to sleep tonight. I really felt like I found a good person with a good gaurantee and her dogs looked very well kept. Short of flying across the country to visit every breeder I pull up on a search.... ugh... I am at a loss...

I guess in hind sight I could have visited shows and met breeders that way, but would that have guaranteed me a healthy dog? I don't know, maybe, maybe not... there are so many variables.

I really feel like I'm screwed no matter what now... I almost wish I had not opened this can of worms here.. While I am glad to have the info.... Will you all look at me as supporting a bad breeding program if I continue with the purchace? I don't know that I want that title.

I feel like I am doing everything wrong here.. I researched, I called, I visited locally, and saw a sad state of affairs, I started looking elsewhere, I found a licenced kennel in good standings, I am not shipping, I'm flying out, I have her first vet visit set up, I have every thing in place, xpen, kennel, first aid kit, you name it and she has it waiting for her... And I talked with so many breeders... most were so rude and money hungry... It was very discouraging. I felt like I scored when I called Pam. Her dogs looked great! The contract I signed was well written she was open to any and all questions. I asked for pictures, and she took them, I called and she was in the middle of baths and had to call back. Everything added up.

So what? I just scratch the deposit, scratch the plane ticket and do what? Return the hundreds of dollars in accessories that I have here?

Sorry everyone, but I am a great person who cares very much about the decision that I am making and I feel like some of you are looking at this as a bad judgement on my part...

I really hope that my conversation goes well with her tommorow.