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Originally Posted by lisaly  I appreciate how sweet everyone is, and I won't forget your kindness. With the loss of our other little babies, the pain is still deep and the love is very powerful. I wouldn't want it to be any other way. The difference is that time has healed some of the painful feelings, but it is a bit too soon with Ashley. We talk about all of our little girls often, and an overwhelming feeling of joy overtakes us as we remember how special they made our lives and how lucky we were to be their mom and dad. They were our babies and our lives revolved around caring for and loving them and helping them to feel secure and loved. The love we feel will last forever, even with the passage of time.
My husband still regrets the fact that we buried our first Yorkie, Jolie, in our backyard. We planted a beautiful tree for her with pretty flowers surrounding the area. I do love that area, but since we will move from here one day, it still upsets him that we will have to leave her behind. Knowing how he feels about this, I can't imagine how devastating it would have been if we were given the wrong ashes instead of Ashley's. I also would have been distraught if we had. I brought Ashley to our vet after she passed away in my arms at home, and I was given paperwork from them. Ashley's ashes had a copy of the paperwork contained with her ashes, so I am certain that we have her remains. I hope this post saves someone else the hurtful experience that we had. Thank you again for your support and for caring. It means the world to me.
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so many of us here understand your great pain! it doesnt seem to get any easier no matter how much time has passed and we will never "get over" losing a family member. i know so many people do not understand. several of my coworkers gave me a hard time when we lost nika and told me she's just a dog. but they do not know the blessing it is to have them in our lives and how much our time with them means to us. they dont understand the deep love we feel for our babies. we are lucky to know how wonderful it is to have such a powerful feeling of love for them! no matter how great the pain is from losing them its all worth it to have that love and the memories and for our lives to be touched by them. im so thankful you're always there for everyone here with beautiful kind words and understanding. especially when in the world there are so many who do not understand and think we are nuts! i think of her all of the time and it still hurts so bad. the tears still come all the time. i would do anything to hold her again. as time passes i miss her more and more. im so glad i have zowi (nika's furmomma) and i cry and hold her in my arms and i know she knows why i am crying. she completely understands. she misses her baby too and understands my pain. shes so great at comforting me! i see nikas beautiful eyes every time i look into zowis eyes. they were just about identical except zowi was twice nikas size and nika had floppy ears, zowis stand straight up. thank you for the comfort you have given me and so many others, and thank you for always sharing it really does mean a lot. i am so lucky i got to be her mommy and ill never fill the whole in my heart from losing her. i wish we couldve been together forever she was so loving and caring. i also have a terrible feeling that the fluids she was supposed to be given in the emergency hospital were not dripping and that is why she passed. when i went to visit her that sunday morning before she passed away i saw the doctor there do a double take and seemed like she was fixing the iv to drip, like it had not been and seemed like she was trying to do it quickly before i looked back. i shouldve checked but just seeing how terrible nika looked broke my heart and i didnt think that something like that would happen especially when she was the only patient there at the time. we didn't think we were gonna lose her either. i guess ill never know. and they charged me less money than originally estimated so thats another reason i feel they didnt do everything they were supposed to be doing for her. it breaks my heart though and i will always wonder. i have found a different emergency vet to go to if its necessary. im glad that the ashes really turned out to be ashleys and im sure shes with you always in spirit and definately in your heart. you gave her 17 beautiful years of love and she knew how much she was loved! thanks again so much for being there! im glad to have people like you here! sending you a hug! ~ carrie