I think more then anything my fiance wants another child with me b/c he wants to go through the baby thing again but for us it wouldnt neccesarily make or break our relationship b/c i have been honest that to him and told him that Im not sure if i want kids or not. And he has said to me that it is completely my decision, he would like to have a child with me but he wont leave me for it b/c he has children so it wont be like im preventing him from experiencing the feeling of being father.Also I really dont mind the fact that he had children b/c to me they are great but being that im not the actual parent and younger they confide in me more so it gives me a glimpse as to what I could possibly be dealing with myself and not knowing about it. Specially since no matter how trust and openess u have with them there will always be things that they will not tell u. And I dont feel like wanting a break from ur kids is that childish I am sure that there have to be a lot of parents that sometimes no matter how much they love their kids sometimes become overwhelmed with all that it entails, and feel that they need a break that will not come entirely until they are grown and on their own. And also when i asked the question wether I should or not I dont mean right now just whenever I do decide it might be a good time. Right now I am not in a position where i think i would be able to give a child all of my best.
Whenever i decide if i decide to do it i would like to be prepared in the sense that I will be offering my child the best example of what a woman is supposed to be like as well as a mother. This is the reason i give it sooo much thought b/c I know its a tough job and i would like to be the best mother i can be the same way i try to be the best furbutt mother i can be. And I dont mean that if my child is not what I expected I would love him/her less its just so much harder on the parents sometimes more then ur actual child b/c U hurt soo much for them that it is inevitable to worry for them until the day YOU die so even when the initial task of raising them is done they will always have that spot in ur brain and heart that will never let u not worry or think about them so more then it just being about any inconvenience on my life or them not turning out right its the seize of your heart and mind that will never let u go.
__________________  Edward and Mom  |