I am sorry to hear of all you have gone thru, its really a shame when something so unexpected happens, there nothing you could have done to prevent this, I know it must be hard and i wont pretend to know what your going thru , but i want to say I am sorry for your loss and best wishes for your other healthy pups ! I am glad you have gotten the strenght to share and that the one of the steps to recovery dont think that there is a time-line for greif ! you heal at your own pace... Good luck in your recovery and please dont beat yourself up , please if you ever need help let your family and friends know that you need time to heal.
Best wishes **** I am praying for you, Your family & your pups****