[yorkieusa]

I am so sorry about little Rio. The grief is normal and I believe we always feel guilt, because they are so little and helpless. Guilt is a part of grief, believe it or not. When something is sudden or unexpected, then our hearts are not as prepared for the loss and we feel like our little one's have been too quickly taken from us. However, I really believe that this is a feeling all of us will have, even when the death is a timely one (if there can ever be such a thing where we are all concerned). I cannot tell you how to get over the deep grief you are experiencing. Heck! I'm still in grief over Muffin. The guilt you are feeling is misplaced, but normal. There is no majic pill to take to make the pain go away. You do have to pull yourself up by the boot straps, though, and try to move forward a little more each day. There are some little babies that are in need of your love and care and if you center your attention on them, then perhaps you can then learn to move forward a little more with each passing day.