So sorry to read about all the troubles you are having with your babies. I didn't think that any of your posts where out of line or that anyone was downing what you said. One thing to remember, as others have said, this is a public forum and with that you have tons and tons of people with different feelings and ways of expressing these feelings. It is very difficult to convey the exact feelings that you want so please remember that. Something that may mean a whole to you may not mean a thing to someone else and vice versa.
Hope you stick around, the valuable information that is on here way outweighs any negativity. At least in my opinion.