I feel terrible because I was so mean to my hubby, Jim, the day of my mother's burial. As most of you know, I lost my little Yorkie princess, Katie Lyn, the day before my mother passed away 2 weeks ago. So I've been grieving for my beloved mother, as well as my precious little girl. Well on the day of the burial, I came home from the cemetary and went back to my parent's house. Jim told me that he was going out to run a few errands. Well, that errand was to go buy me something ... he spent $1,400 on an adorable 4 month old female Yorkie pup. He put one of Katie's custom made sweaters (that said "Mommy's Girl" on it) on the little pup and brought her to my dad's house as a gift for me to try and cheer me up. Instead of being happy, I blew up and screamed at him. I told him that he was trying to "replace" my Katie and that it was never going to happen. I also screamed at him to take Katie's sweater off "that dog". I didn't even touch the puppy and I made him return her, which he did and he got his money back.
But now I feel AWFUL because I know Jim was only trying to make me happy. I've apologized so many times and he keeps telling me that it's ok, not to worry about it and he only wants me to be happy. Now I feel even worse for being so mean to him because all he has ever wanted was for me to be happy. He's such a great guy and he does EVERYTHING for me. He treats me like I'm a piece of fragile glass. And how do I repay his kindness? I scream at him and hurt his feelings. I feel like a terrible person.
Our Maltese, Codie Lee, suffers from severe seperation anxiety and the only "cure" was when we got Katie for him as a sister. He seperation anxiety was TOTALLY gone and he was happy and care free. Now that she's gone, Codie has once again started to exhibit early signs of seperation anxiety. So I know in my heart that I must get another dog because Codie desperately needs the companionship during the day. But my problem is that my heart is broken over my Katie. How can I move on and get another dog? I feel like I'm betraying her memory. What should I do? If I wait too long, Codie will suffer and may even have to be medicated (according to my vet) but I do NOT want to medicate my dog. Codie really suffers bad ... he even hurts himself by biting his tail or paw until it bleeds. I can't stand to see him suffer like that all over again. He doesn't deserve it -- he's such a sweet and gentle little boy.
Please tell me what you think I should do. Should I put my feelings aside and get another Yorkie for Codie's said? Jim thinks that the new dog will help me heal. But I'm not so sure.
Am I being selfish? As a good pet owner, I should put Codie's needs and feelings before my own.