[MommysBabyRoxy]

Originally Posted by RachelandSadie

I don't personally view Sadie to the extent of an actual human baby, but pretty darn close and only because i don't have the experience of loving a human baby of my own to compare the love i have for Sadie too. someday if we are able to have children, i hope to know the love you have for your daughter and understand it a bit more but for now, Sadie's just about the most important thing to me and the closest thing i have to compare to loving a child.

Your post made me cry... Just wanted to let you know that.

I think we all handled ourselves very well in this conversation, especially appreciating other ppls opinions and understanding and just agreeing to disagree... that being said.

I just wanted to let everybody know why I probably feel the way I do.

Ever since I realized I could have children when I was little, I knew I wanted to be a mother... I was pregnant when I was 19 to a guy who was bad for me, and he caused my miscarriage... I wont put it any deeper than that. I was only a little over 2 mo.

When I met Rob after I had broke up with the guy who caused the problem, he was so wonderful to me, but he wasnt ready for kids after 2 years and he also has a "problem" and to tell you the truth, I am not sure if I can even have children, because its not like I havent tried since.

I figured I would get a little dog instead... and after searching for a "Roxy" for almost a year, I finally found her.

So, the fact that I only know the bond with me and Roxy and how I feel for her and take care of her, and how the bond is growing so quickly for Lexi... I guess I feel like a person who adopted a child.

Yes, you dont have that feeling I guess like you do if youre actually carrying the child and feeling it grow inside you... but I do feel like I adopted them, brought them in, and I now take full responsibility for them and love them just like I would a child (since I dont actually have a child to compare the love to).

Bottom line is... the only ppl I know have betrayed me, besides Rob... but none of them are here for me whenever I cry in private, or whenever I need someone to listen. Roxy and Lexi are always here and always know when I am crying, and theyre always right beside me, listening, and giving me puppy kisses.

I hear parents all the time say if something happened to their children, theyd be devastated... and truly, thats how I feel about even just if I think about something happening to Roxy... I feel like I will be heartbroken... I am not even sure I will be able to deal, and trust me... I know thats not a good thing.

The fact is, I love them... deeply. I treasure them, take videos of them, keep them warm when theyre cold, hold them when theyre sick, take them to the doctor when they dont feel better, and even have scrapbooks of them... they might not be human babies... but I am definitely their mommy.

Now I am crying.
lol, I get emotional over my babies... and obviously, it makes me type long posts...