I have not posted in a few days and sometimes that does me some good.
Trust me I think I have done just about everything suggested. I still post on craigslist and will continue to do so till the cows come home.
I post at least 1-2 times a week there. I am feel like I am doing much, much better. However my brain and body dont think so. I no longer have nails and have honestly gained like 18 lbs since he went missing. I miss him every single day and its very difficult to not think about him. Especially every time I step out of the shower, Monica is right there anxiously waiting to lick my ankles dry.
This is something that Cookie did every single day.None of our other dogs ever do that. So you could imagine me stepping out of the shower and wiping my face and feel that my ankles are being licked? For a second I think it's Cookie. She has been absolutely amazing but she will NEVER replace my first baby and that's Cookie. I'm starting to get busy with decorating halls. It's draining work but it's bringing in some very needed income for now.
I don't want anyone to think that I've just left YT. I still sign in and read posts but I have to remove myself from the website. I just jump from thread and I start to feel sad. Sometimes I read about a yorkie's birthday and I just start to hurt thinking about Cookie's birthday next month.
3 Weeks ago I did something I thought I would NEVER do in a million years.
I got a heart shaped tattoo with a blue paw print inside of it. You cant see it unless my hair is in a ponytail. I showed my mom and I was afraid to because she's so against stuff like that. When she saw it she just caressed the back of my neck and told me it was beautiful. She didnt need any explanation, she just knew. ANyone that sees it just nods their head like "I know thats for your baby" It HURT A LOT. But I started think of being angry and frustrated that someone just refuses to do the right thing and the pain of the burning needle disappeared.
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