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Originally Posted by Cookie2  I know how much pain you must be in. I am grieving a loss in a way. My yorkie went missing over 5 weeks ago. We can never truly understand until we are in each other's shoes. What I can tell you is maybe in a few months you will find a job and be able to make a payment plan with this lady to get your dog back and pay her back what she has spent. One thing I must tell you is that doing the right thing can be the toughest thing you've ever done.
You did the RIGHT thing trust me. Do NOT feel guilty , Do NOT feel that you abondoned your furbaby. I do not know at this moment how my yorkie is being treated, I dont know if he is eating enough, if he is symptomatic of his MVD, if he is being neglected in anyway, if he is losing weight and is frightened. I dont know 100% if he is still alive. But I pray and have hope.
I dont know anything. Please try and take comfort that you know where your yorkie is, she is getting the medical attention she needs and is being loved. I know you miss her. But you do know where she is and that this person has taken her in to help her. Pray to God and give thanks for this.
Even if you feel like you cant think straight, cant sleep, cant eat, cant stop thinking of her have peace in knowing she is ok.
I dont mean to sound harsh in anyway. My heart is broken and maybe it might help telling you about my situation. I have cried all the time over this and got to the point that I needed to take a sedative to sleep everynight.
Today I just got in my car and drove 5 mph with my windows rolled down with a sound amplifier headphone set...hoping that I would hear my yorkie bark somewhere. The weather is nice here and most homes have their windows opened so I figured to take a drive and look again....
This is a never ending thing for me because I dont know anything.
I'll have you in my prayers and I hope you see that you did the absolute very best thing for your baby..
(((hugs)))
Gen |
Gen, thank you and I have read your posts and wondered how you were able to deal with such a thing. I would have already driven myself mad over that.
My heart goes out to you, that has to be such an unsettling feeling. You are right, at least I know where Savannah is and that's more comfort that you're feeling. A person always feels that their problems and feelings are sooo horrible until they hear someone else's. I can't imagine, nor would I want to imagine how you must feel. It broke my heart when I read your story and it still saddens me. I cannot compare the hurt to yours. I would be devastated as I'm sure you are.
Thank you for taking the time to help me, given the circumstances that you are under. That means more to me than you'll ever know. I know that everyone that's trying to help me here are right, including you. I took all the things you all have said in consideration when I made my decision to find her a new home. I just need to keep those reasons fresh in my mind and stop being selfish. I was commended the other night on here for my selflessness and turn around wanting to unwind the whole thing because I was being selfish! I know I am not what she needs right now and right now is what counts. I've put off so much health care for all of my little ones because of my lack of money, only taking care of what needed to be addressed then. In doing that, they are all in so much of a need that it became overwhelming to me. It's harder when you know you failed them. But I don't have to fail her anymore. As hurtful as that was to type. In reality and my given situation, I really don't need any of my babies for the same reason, but I can't bear to lose anymore. My best to you Gen and I hope and pray for a miracle for you. You need her as much as she needs you and I hope that happens for you both. God Bless!