I know how much pain you must be in. I am grieving a loss in a way. My yorkie went missing over 5 weeks ago. We can never truly understand until we are in each other's shoes. What I can tell you is maybe in a few months you will find a job and be able to make a payment plan with this lady to get your dog back and pay her back what she has spent. One thing I must tell you is that doing the right thing can be the toughest thing you've ever done.
You did the RIGHT thing trust me. Do NOT feel guilty , Do NOT feel that you abondoned your furbaby. I do not know at this moment how my yorkie is being treated, I dont know if he is eating enough, if he is symptomatic of his MVD, if he is being neglected in anyway, if he is losing weight and is frightened. I dont know 100% if he is still alive. But I pray and have hope.
I dont know anything. Please try and take comfort that you know where your yorkie is, she is getting the medical attention she needs and is being loved. I know you miss her. But you do know where she is and that this person has taken her in to help her. Pray to God and give thanks for this.
Even if you feel like you cant think straight, cant sleep, cant eat, cant stop thinking of her have peace in knowing she is ok.
I dont mean to sound harsh in anyway. My heart is broken and maybe it might help telling you about my situation. I have cried all the time over this and got to the point that I needed to take a sedative to sleep everynight.
Today I just got in my car and drove 5 mph with my windows rolled down with a sound amplifier headphone set...hoping that I would hear my yorkie bark somewhere. The weather is nice here and most homes have their windows opened so I figured to take a drive and look again....
This is a never ending thing for me because I dont know anything.
I'll have you in my prayers and I hope you see that you did the absolute very best thing for your baby..
(((hugs)))
Gen |