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Originally Posted by Iluvalldogs  I am so sorry for your loss! I know it must have been one of the hardest things you had to do -- but it really was for the better if the lady that has her is willing to take care of her, and you were in reality unable to do that anymore. It is better that way, rather than keep her and let her suffer because you couldn't tend to her needs. I can only imagine what you must be feeling. I am so sorry and know that my thoughts and prayers are with you! |
I agree with you that it was for the better for my Savannah. It was THE hardest thing I've ever had to do. It's been 4 days and I've called the lady everyday except yesterday because I knew she had to go to Columbia. I phoned this morning and she said Savannah is doing fine. Sleeps in her bed with her at night, (which I never allowed her to do because I couldn't trust her!) and she seems to be adjusting. I know it sounds terrible, but I asked if I could go and see her today to see for myself how she was faring and (understandable) the lady felt it would be too hard on Savannah and to give her a month to adjust and then come. I agree, but it would put my heart to rest if I could see for myself. I believe with all of my heart that this woman will do better by her than I ever could really. Savannah will get more attention and will have all of her needs met more sufficiently than what I could give her here. As awful as it sounds, thru the years and all that she has put me thru with her potty habits and bull-headedness, it made it hard to give her the attention she needed because she frustrated me on a daily basis.And for a while now, I have distanced myself from her because I knew I was going to have to find her a new home. I feel guilty for it all now. I wasn't the best for her. I did love her deeply, but it wasn't what she deserved. She deserved to have the best life possible. Hopefully now she has that. I miss her more than I could ever explain, and I also miss all the things about her that I found to be so annoying. Sounds strange, I know. But I do. I've cried every day and I'm am overly beating myself up. My heart aches for her to be here once again. I have to find a way to let go before I drive myself crazy.
Thank you for your kind message...