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Originally Posted by Lori63  I am sooooo very sorry for your loss! This has made me cry reading your story. I can say that I understand how you feel tho my pain is not from the exact same loss but a loss just the same. My baby is almost 13 and I recently had to part with her because her health had deteriorated and I could no longer afford to keep up with all of it. I did find her a home with a lady that will tend to her needs and is willing to take on the expense of it all. Still, not having her with me rips my heart into pieces. Everything I do reminds me of her. Even certain TV programs that come on, songs on the radio...! It sounds utterly ridiculous and I know but I feel as bad as if she had died. I gave her up on Saturday and since then all I have done is cry. I cant eat, I can't sleep, my stomach is in knots! I am hurting so bad I just want to die. I think alot of this comes from the fact that I feel as tho I let her down. I know deep down inside that I did all I could with the money I had. When I lost my job in August, it's as tho her health began getting worse at that time as well. I spent money I didn't have at the vet to try and fix whatever was wrong. They did nothing but make suggestions as to what they felt was wrong and my baby was still sick. With only having unemployment as my income, I could no longer afford to have more tests run or tend to whatever she needed if they did find something. It's sooooo sad for both of us. I don't have her and she doesn't have me. This is the worst feeling in the world!!!! I'm keeping you in my thoughts hun and know that I DO feel your pain! |
I am so sorry for your loss! I know it must have been one of the hardest things you had to do -- but it really was for the better if the lady that has her is willing to take care of her, and you were in reality unable to do that anymore. It is better that way, rather than keep her and let her suffer because you couldn't tend to her needs. I can only imagine what you must be feeling. I am so sorry and know that my thoughts and prayers are with you!