It is only 6:22am , I did get some sleep last night, took meds to calm me down, and went to sleep early. It is a horrible feeling not to have Miely boo bear at home . I know she is probably sleeping right night in the cage at the vets office. I know they gave her something for the pain.
So now I wait, wait for the vet to call , letting me know she is ok , and doing well.
The guilt I feel is unsurmaountable. i know she is in good hands and be well cared for.
I stopped crying, and now just feel exhausted . i am praying miely makes it through the surgery and is going to feel a lot better, pain meds and antibiotics is what she will come home with. no amount of expenses is too little to pay for her to not be suffering and in pain.
Such a little pup , and so much she has to go through because of an accident on my part.
NEVER will I ever use grooming scissors to get a matt out .I have clippers, I will use them , I just am not good as a groomer, and only was trying to take the pain away from a uncomfortable matt, causing her to hurt and be injured on something so little as taking a matt out has destroyed my heart, and hurt me badly emotionally.
I am on full disability, and it is difficult to handle things , if I were in a better place in my mind.
I know the Dr's will do their best for Miely. i pray she will recover, and i'l be bringing her home sometime today.
God forgive me , and give me the strengh to cope.
going back to bed now, and trying to get some sleep , I have to be more awake to drive the hr to the vet , and pck her up . Prays for Miely please.