I am so sorry.
Many of us have gone through what you are facing and know exactly how you feel. Just know that we understand and you will always have friends here to talk to.
We had to have my our beloved German Shepherd put down a couple of weeks ago and it hurts deeply. I had to leave the board for a week because I couldn't deal with all of the dog conversations without crying.
The pain is lessening but I still cry (like right now.)
Someday we will be able to think about our furkids without the pain but it is hard. Be strong and remember that even though it is almost killing you, you are doing the right thing - the kindest thing. Our pets deserve no less.
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