Thank you so much for your kind words - they are greatly appreciated! I know that he felt loved and has undoubtedly forgiven me for not helping him as he was just the sweetest soul one could ever imagine... It is just so unfair and completely out of balance that his unequaled kindness and loving disposition was rewarded with the most horrifying death that i can think of... That is what I can't get out of my mind - the thoughts that were franticly racing through his head those last moments of his precious little life that must have felt like an eternity to him as he was praying that I would appear quickly to save him as I had done in the past. That is why we worked with them until we felt confident that they would know what to do before giving them full run of the house without watchful supervision... He so loved our new house and watched over it with such pride and a genuine sence of duty. He was an amazing little man! I have seen that look of panic and desperation in his eyes as he swam to my voice before and daddy was there to save him if he needed me... THAT is the image that will not leave my mind... That and the heartbreaking image of him floating above the 1st step where the water was only 5" deep! He should have been able to stand up and not drown right there... This is just so not fair! It is hard to have faith in a God that would allow such a tragedy to happen... |