Oh, I'm so sorry. There are other girls on here and their little doggies have had the surgery and were better than when they were new afterward. Please don't be soooo upset. I know you love your baby to pieces, but outside the expense and your little one having to go through all of that, there really is a reason to be very optimistic about it. I know you're scared, though and that is totally normal. Again, I'm sorry. Just give him lots of hugs and kisses from us and know that if you need anything we are here even if it is just to talk. OK?