im very sorry you are dealing with this loss. i to live in ca. and im the daddy to max and milo.our furbabys.... 5 years ago i had to make the most difficult choice to date. i had to put our 14 year old german shepard to sleep..... i cried for days on end wondering like you,,,, why..... just keep posting and let us know how you are doing.. we do care....michael |