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Originally Posted by Misti1  You have the whole story correct.
One thing that is going on here is trying to rebond in my heart with Mika. Having her taken away and having to give her up and thinking I would never get her back again, or even see her much (my daughter worked such hours that trips home to Memphis just weren't happening, not even for Xmas), I just let go of her so I could stop hurting.
The connection between US was broken and I gave that love to Maya.
Mika is different now, the 9 months basically spent alone in my daughter's bedroom as she worked, has changed her into an indendent creature. She doesn't want to be picked up, bolts away from you at times, and only wants affection when SHE wants it. Slowly though I am seeing some signs of the Mika I knew coming back.
I wonder what she must be thinking being back here. I wonder if she remembers the house, the yard, the drainage ditch she got caught in????
Me?????
I wonder if she thinks Amber will walk back through the door and come for her.
For days after Amber went back to Atlanta to prepare for Japan, I had to open the bedroom door and let Mika jump in the bed and be sure she wasn't there, the bathroom too. IT was so sad.
Anyway...I'm just waxing meloncholy today. |
It's ok to be melancholy and to even wish things were different.
Yes, Mika remembers it all. And in time she will adjust to everything again. But the other thing to remember is - she was so little when she was there before and she has grown up - they change a bit over time too.
Maybe she will be interested in the webcam - and will like seeing Amber. Some animals are really intune with computer screen or tv