I am sad to hear you say that you are not a good mom, because your baby is SOOO lucky to have you!! If it weren't for you, she might be a lot worse off!! By doing everything you can, and doing the best you can, you are GREAT! Just keep your thoughts up, and we'll be praying for you and your little one. I HOPE you find a better vet! That first one sounds like a nightmare! Have you thought about pet insurance?? Maybe that could help, financially?? Good luck, my thoughts and prayers are with you! Lola sends your baby a kiss
. Keep us posted please!!