[Txgurl06]

Originally Posted by YorkieMumma

I can't express how healing and comforting it is to read everyone's loving words. It is my second day without little Olive now, and I have been a zombie, stuck in bed in my PJs (with little Violet by my side). All I want to do is stay in bed and try to sleep, or if I can't, loggin to YT to read your kind words. THANK You so much. It is helping me and my husband somehow cope.

Txgurl06, my heart is with you too. We are sisters in experiencing this nightmare together.

Several of you have asked me about pictures of little Olive. I made an album with pics of her, and Violet (her older sister), and some of our furball family.

It was the first I've looked at pictures of Olive since she died, and it was like a knife piercing my heart. I have a terrible headache from crying. But as painful as it is, it was also cathartic to look as some of her pictures again. Oh my little sweetheart, Olive. Mumma loves you so much, and I wish I could kiss you and hold you again. I can still imagine how you smell. I love you so much, my little angel.

I hope you enjoy the pictures of little Olive. Thanks to my YT family for your prayers and support. I love you all.

you are right we do share this. I hope not to share it with anyone else though! That morning i got to the vets office a little early and i had to wait for the vet to open. So skoshi and me just sat in the car and i took a couple of pics of him. I dont know y i did it he just looked so cute. I had the worst feeling to and i cried the whole night before , that morning all the way there and after i dropped him off. I wanted to just say forget it but i didnt because i believed it was truly the right thing. It was sooo hard when i walked into the vet and i just wanted it to be a dream but instead out they came with his little body in a pastic bag. I ran outside crying! this may sound weird but when we got home and i got the courage i could not stand to see him in the bags, so i ripped them open and just sat there and petted him for the longest time. I remember talking to him asking him to just please open his eyes and be okay. I also told him how sorry i was for leaving him and that i hoped he wasnt mad. that may seem weird to yall but when yall go through it you will understand. I started a new job that night and had no choice but to go to work but my dad made him a casket and my family buried him. Time does ease the pain. We still constantly talk about skoshi and remember him in our home. Sometimes i slip up and will call my other boy skoshi. You really have to work with yourself to heal your pain and know that its not your fault. Even today i feel like i could have done something and i feel so bad but its not healthy to be like that and you got to just live with no regrets and know you were trying to help her. skoshi was my first yorkie and will never be forgotten and we went through hell getting him just to have him taken away! you will never forget olive but try to heal.