Some of you may remember my thread a while back
http://www.yorkietalk.com/forums/tra...ll-sudden.html . For all the people we talked to, the re-training we attempted, and the trainer we had come to our house, nothing still would change Lexie's feelings towards Halle. We resorted to the life of living separately behind baby gates, giving equal time to each of them to spend with the family, and still doing whatever we could think of to try and help them to get along. After a few months of living this way, we saw no change in how Lexie felt. Given the opportunity, Lexie still would go after Halle with barely a moment's notice. And living separate lives for those months also showed us that it was not the best way for any of them, or us to live. None of the fur kids were happy when it was their turn behind the gate & away from the rest of the family, and always in the back of my mind was the nagging fear that someone, sometime would inadvertantly let one or the other slip through the gate & Halle would have to endure yet another attack.
A few weeks ago, we decided it would be best to find Lexie a home where she would not have to fight for her place in the pack. I had hoped to find a family member or a close friend that could give her the love she deserves; unfortunately we were unable to find someone close to us. So, we did what we thought was the next best thing and put her in the hands of a yorkie rescue group we knew of, with the assurance that they would find her a new loving home.
She left us last Sunday, and words cannot describe how awful I feel. The few days before she left I would break into tears each time she looked at me with her beautiful brown eyes or when I held her close. I thought (or tried to convince myself), that after all we had been through in the last few months, that the relief of having life get back to normal in our house would mask the saddness of Lexie not being here once she was gone. I was so very wrong! I can't even count the number of times I've cried for her; and still do. I almost think I would have handled it better if she had gone to rainbow bridge. With her still being alive & well, I feel like I have in some way failed her. Yet, knowing Lexie like I do and seeing how she was acting lately here, I am fairly certain that she will be happier and calmer in a home with fewer fur siblings or at least maybe the only female.
Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think that I would lose one of my babies before it was "their time". It was harder to let her go than I ever imagined. I love her still and I she'll always have a special place in my heart. If you could please, keep Lexie in your thoughts and say a little prayer that she adjusts well to her new surroundings and finds a new forever home very soon. I miss her so much and just need to know that she is happy.
