OK, the truth is. . . . I think I fell in love with Sophie on the way down to see if I wanted her, so, there ya go! I think everything real takes a bit of time. You have wanted a little guy for a long time, so you're probably right that you built it up a bit in your head, but who of us here wouldn't? I also think that writing about anything helps sort it out because we can see it in front of us and it's so much clearer. At any rate, YOU ARE SO COOL to take on a pup who obviously has gone through a lot and didn't have anyone to take him on until you came. That really counts here and in Someones big book as well.
The best dog I have ever had was a huge, flea infested, brown standard poodle that had been abandoned and locked in a garage by people who just moved away one day and left him there! Well, I was only 16, knew it would be a hard sell at home especially since we already had a dog, but I had to do something. So, I snuck over, broke the lock and let him out. He flew by me and ran down the street so happy to be out. So for several weeks I saw him running around the neighborhood. He was getting skinnier and skinnier. I couldn't stand it anymore, so I brought him home. Promised my parents that I was going to clean him up, feed him and find him a great home. Huh! No problem, they were fine with that, a surprise to me. So, I shaved him, my first time using a shaver, bathed him, defleaed him and fed him the best I could. I had nightmares about fleas forever,but... turns out he was silver, beautiful and completely devoted to me. I know he knew I saved him. He knew it. He never left my side. My parents turned in the people who left him. They came to our house when they heard we had taken him in and said he was theirs. The police became involved and the last time I saw him was in back of a squad car. "Sam" was all mine. Love at first site, absolutely not. I felt better about him after his haircut. I fell in love with him when he put his big head on my knee and looked up at me. I could hear every thought he had and I felt the same way. I'd love to hear when that feeling comes over you, and it will, just give yourself some time. It comes whether you want it to or not! Hug yourself for me! |