Im sorry you are having such a hard time
You are very brave for coming here and posting about your situation. This will pass, these things ALWAYS do. i know you probably dont feel that way right now and I can "hear" the overwhelm in your "voice." Thanks for the great job you did on the cookbooks and all the extra effort you put into them, you are a valued member of your community and we are all here for you..((hugs)) stay strong
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