I have been crying my eyes out off and on for the last few days...my little DeDe is scheduled for her spay on Monday morning. It's a long story but she was a sick puppy...she was one of Chloe's (my sister's yorkie) puppies. She had some sort of virus that ran through her and she almost died. They ran every test in the world but everything came back normal. I got so attached to her that I ended up just keeping her as my baby. She is always right with me wherever I go...she looks up at me with those big brown eyes and I know that she trusts me to take care of her. I was dreading this moment since she was a puppy...she is 2 1/2 lbs at 6 months and she just had a recheck of all her levels with a full blood panel...everything came back normal and my vet...who is very intelligent and knowledgable...and has been doing this a long time...said that there is no medical reason why she shouldn't be ok to be spayed. They do a lot of work with small animals, they are known for being really good with mice, ferrets, etc. and he said that he spays mice and sugar gliders all the time...so if they can pop right back out of it a 2 1/2 lb yorkie will be just fine. He is an excellent vet and I trust him completely, but I just keep having this vision of never being able to see her again and here I am crying all over...I've been trying to think about other things but I can't get it out of my head. Now it's only 1 day away and I get more and more nervous. I get so close to cancelling the whole thing but I know this is the best for her. She is so little and I have intact males in the house...I just can't take that chance. She is my baby...I am so attached to all my monkeys but DeDe and I just got stuck together at the hip when I almost lost her as a baby. I hand feed her every day still and carry her around with me wherever I go...sigh...I got her Christmas presents already and I just keep thinking that what if I'm never able to give them to her....
I know I"m probably just being super paranoid...my vet said he does this all the time and he can't remember the last time they lost an animal under anesthesia. The kind they use is the safest kind and he said they have them hooked into all kinds of machines that monitor their vitals...and they can bring them right back out if anything happens. She has to be spayed and get about 4 or 5 of her babies pulled that are already loose. My vet knew how worried I was so he squeezed her in on Monday so we could get it over with as soon as possible. Also, my sister is letting DeDe's mommy get spayed with her at the same time so they can be together. He's going to do both of them one right after the other.
Am I making the right decision? Am I being too dramatic and paranoid? In some ways I feel like I am, and in others I just can't stop thinking about losing my little munchkin.
Ohhh this is going to be sooo hard...
Thank you for letting me get all that out...