Oh I understand being frustrated haha. I'm sure you do love her. It's hard not to.
I just want you to know that a lot of people on here are VERY passionate about the breed, so try not to be offended by anything you may hear on here. No one's trying to attack you, just watching out for our pups, you know?
Happy Holidays to you as well! I'm sure that you'll find oodles of info on here.