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DrakesMom · 09-21-2005, 06:51 AM

As expected, by the area of placement of this thread, it is not a happy one! We have (had) 3 dogs...Lexy (black lab), Harley (yorkie-poo) and Drake (yorkie)! Sunday evening Lexy was out of her pen and my son was outside with her and decided to come in but left her out! She normally stays in the yard and has always minded really well! To make a long story short, she was hit and killed by a car, and I was horrified! I couldn't believe it! I haven't felt pain like this since my mother suddenly passed away almost 2 years ago! I never thought losing a pet could hurt so much! We got Lexy when she was a puppy and she was a trained hunting dog, with the work of my hubby and son! She adored them because of all the rewards she was given! She adored me because she knew "mom" would always let her have her way! Now that she's gone and with the way she was killed, I doubt myself as to whether I am worthy of having Harley & Drake! I told my son he should have put her up and he said he would and went in the other room! I feel it's MY fault because although he's 14 and should be doing what he's told, me, being the parent, should have enforced it and if I had, she would still be here!

My husband buried her in a grave that took him 2 1/2 hours to dig by hand! I have put a standing heart-shaped flower arrangement with a guardian angel in the middle on the grave, trying to make myself feel better about all this but nothing seems to be working!

I have done nothing but cry since it happened! I know that it was just a freak accident, but it was one that could have been prevented, and I hate myself for it!

I guess what I'm getting at is.....is this normal??? I've had Harley & Drake both since they were puppies and it literally scares me to death to think of something happening to them now! My first thought was I need to give them away to a good home before I cause their lives to end too early also! Since the incident, I've definitely showed them even more love and attention but yet it seems all that is doing is making me feel even more guilty that Lexy's not here for me to do the same thing with!

I don't know....it's tearing me up inside, and I sure hope this gets easier in a fast pace kind of way because I don't know how much longer I can handle feeling like this!

I'm sorry this is so long, but as I sit here and type, the tears are still flowing and my heart just keeps pouring! Thank you so much for listening!

09-21-2005, 06:51 AM	#1
DrakesMom Senior Yorkie Talker Join Date: Feb 2005 Location: Missouri Posts: 107	Is It Normal To Hurt THIS Much? As expected, by the area of placement of this thread, it is not a happy one! We have (had) 3 dogs...Lexy (black lab), Harley (yorkie-poo) and Drake (yorkie)! Sunday evening Lexy was out of her pen and my son was outside with her and decided to come in but left her out! She normally stays in the yard and has always minded really well! To make a long story short, she was hit and killed by a car, and I was horrified! I couldn't believe it! I haven't felt pain like this since my mother suddenly passed away almost 2 years ago! I never thought losing a pet could hurt so much! We got Lexy when she was a puppy and she was a trained hunting dog, with the work of my hubby and son! She adored them because of all the rewards she was given! She adored me because she knew "mom" would always let her have her way! Now that she's gone and with the way she was killed, I doubt myself as to whether I am worthy of having Harley & Drake! I told my son he should have put her up and he said he would and went in the other room! I feel it's MY fault because although he's 14 and should be doing what he's told, me, being the parent, should have enforced it and if I had, she would still be here! My husband buried her in a grave that took him 2 1/2 hours to dig by hand! I have put a standing heart-shaped flower arrangement with a guardian angel in the middle on the grave, trying to make myself feel better about all this but nothing seems to be working! I have done nothing but cry since it happened! I know that it was just a freak accident, but it was one that could have been prevented, and I hate myself for it! I guess what I'm getting at is.....is this normal??? I've had Harley & Drake both since they were puppies and it literally scares me to death to think of something happening to them now! My first thought was I need to give them away to a good home before I cause their lives to end too early also! Since the incident, I've definitely showed them even more love and attention but yet it seems all that is doing is making me feel even more guilty that Lexy's not here for me to do the same thing with! I don't know....it's tearing me up inside, and I sure hope this gets easier in a fast pace kind of way because I don't know how much longer I can handle feeling like this! I'm sorry this is so long, but as I sit here and type, the tears are still flowing and my heart just keeps pouring! Thank you so much for listening!