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Originally Posted by KiKiPie  From my understanding of anorexia, I feel like this is what I suffer from. I could be terribly wrong. But I feel like when I go days with eating one 300 calorie meal a day, that would be considered anorexic. Again, I could be wrong. Thats why I was hoping to be able to get some advice and support from someone here. I feel like being obsessed with my weight and with food 24 hours a day is a problem. I think that when I do eat, and it makes me hate myself for the whole day, that is a problem. I am aware that I have a problem. I know that I have a distorted body image. I know that no matter if I weigh 150 lbs. or 100 lbs. I still look at myself and feel sick because I think I look overweight. No matter how many people comment on how "sick" I look. In my mind, I am still big. I don't know how it got to this. A year ago, I had no issues like this, except for always feeling a little chubby and having family members comment on that. However, I do think that when I no longer enjoy my life anymore because all I do is think about how scared I am to gain weight and how terrified I am to eat even a bite of food because it may make me look the way I use to.. that they may be a form of anorexia. I don't think its normal to wake up, get dressed and think my clothes fit a little tighter than they did a few days before and so I make sure I don't eat for two days... that is a problem. Again, I have never shared any of this with anyone before I posted this thread. I sincerely appreciate anyone that has pm'd me or given me words of encouragement. It honestly means more to me than you know. I agree that I should find someone to talk to about it. I just hate to disapoint my family. Thank you again. I'm so thankful for my friends here. |
Oh hon, I think you might've misunderstood what I meant above - I'm so sorry if that came off wrong. I *totally* agree with YOU, which is why I gave that "thumbs up" to that link someone provided for you. I think you know via our PMs that I understand exactly where you are.
My comment about misconceptions was in
no way aimed at you - it was more for some of the comments on this thread that show how misunderstood EDs are (ie, people telling you that you're *fine*!
).
HUGS HUGS HUGS. You know I'm here for you.
