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Originally Posted by KiKiPie  From my understanding of anorexia, I feel like this is what I suffer from. I could be terribly wrong. But I feel like when I go days with eating one 300 calorie meal a day, that would be considered anorexic. Again, I could be wrong. Thats why I was hoping to be able to get some advice and support from someone here. I feel like being obsessed with my weight and with food 24 hours a day is a problem. I think that when I do eat, and it makes me hate myself for the whole day, that is a problem. I am aware that I have a problem. I know that I have a distorted body image. I know that no matter if I weigh 150 lbs. or 100 lbs. I still look at myself and feel sick because I think I look overweight. No matter how many people comment on how "sick" I look. In my mind, I am still big. I don't know how it got to this. A year ago, I had no issues like this, except for always feeling a little chubby and having family members comment on that. However, I do think that when I no longer enjoy my life anymore because all I do is think about how scared I am to gain weight and how terrified I am to eat even a bite of food because it may make me look the way I use to.. that they may be a form of anorexia. I don't think its normal to wake up, get dressed and think my clothes fit a little tighter than they did a few days before and so I make sure I don't eat for two days... that is a problem. Again, I have never shared any of this with anyone before I posted this thread. I sincerely appreciate anyone that has pm'd me or given me words of encouragement. It honestly means more to me than you know. I agree that I should find someone to talk to about it. I just hate to disapoint my family. Thank you again. I'm so thankful for my friends here. |
That should be the last of your worries. You're family should love and support you no matter what and want you happy and healthy. Honestly, I would sit them down and talk to them whether it be as a group or individually. Tell them how you feel, why you feel that way, and how they can help you feel better (like not commenting on your weight for starters). If they can't support you, then I'm sorry, but you need to have a long break from them until you are 100% better and are stable minded.