Hi Ginger,
I too loss my very beloved Dior in April. Its been a little over 4 months but the pain of losing him haven't lessen. I no longer going through the intense sorrow or what the doctor called "intense acute mourning" but nevertheless, there is not one day that goes by I don't think of my little angel. The good progress is, I moved pass of thinking how he passed but focus on the great memory he left behind. I don't think there is a right or wrong way to mourn for anyone you deeply loved. The feelings are very personal and not one person go through the same stage at the same time. I too question the same thing as you do... will this ever get easier? Will I be able to stop crying? Why did this happen to me? ... the list goes on forever. What i learned in these few months is we don't have to go through it alone. I think feeling alone is probably the worst feeling for me... like no one in the world can possibly understand what it felt like. That feeling weighted on my shoulder for a long time until I opened my heart and started to shared. I let others in to help me through the pain. I let God in to comfort me by opening my heart.
You are doing all the great things to release your feeling and pain. Cry as much you want... its a way to release our sorrow. Keep ask for help when you needed and open your heart! In time... God will replace your sorrow/pain with joy and peace you can ever image. I am waiting... and I have full faith! I will be praying for you as well. You not only have your own strength to carry on... you have everyone here at YT too! Just imagine the wave of strength! |