[Graleyne]

I do not like my about to be 14 year old daughter very much right now. I still love her more than life, but what she said was just very hurtful and I am pretty hurt and angry right now.

We got into a little argument over a totally unrelated topic (I won't let her go out with a certain boy), and she said that she wasn't dumb like me who didn't even finish college. A lot of it was what she said, but a lot of it was the WAY she said it too.

No, I didn't finish college. It is a VERY sore subject with me as I am very embarrassed about dropping out. I didn't finish because I got pregnant with HER. I made the decision to be a stay at home mom. It wasn't because I wasn't smart enough to graduate. If I had stayed in school I would most likely have my phd by now.

I've attemtped to go back over the years, but it seems like something always happens and I'm not able to finish. I had two other children, then I had a cancer and a hysterectomy, then all the stuff started happening at the old house, etc.

I know she is only a child and she said it because she was mad at me. I think it just was just the wrong thing to say at the wrong time of the wrong day.

I had to just walk away and come in here and sit down for a little bit.

It's just that she honestly doesn't realize all the sacrifices I've made for her and sometimes that hurts. Its crazy that it hurts, because she can't really be expected to understand and be grateful when she doesn't have a clue because I've never told her.

Sometimes being a mom is just HARD.