We met with a surgeon yesterday. We have decided not to do the surgery. It isn't as cut and dry as we had hoped. They don't know what kind of shunt it is, sometimes they come back even after surgery, and complications can arise that would result in a seizure that he can't come out of. It's too risky as far as we're concerned and we can't put him through that. Cruiser will be going back to his breeder on Monday to live out the rest of his short life on the farm with all the other puppies. He should have fun there and she's able to do more medical care at home than we are. I have not stopped crying in 24 hours. I am not looking for any judgments or even any advice. Please don't tell me to get more tests or anything like that. We've made the decision. It is the hardest decision of my life. I feel like a horrible person giving my puppy back. He is MY puppy. I love him more than anything. My heart is breaking right now. I'm just going to hug him a lot and try to cherish every moment that he's still here with us. I just wanted to let everyone know that might be interested after having read this thread. No one will ever know what this is doing to me. I hope he remembers me and knows that I'll be his mommy forever. |