aww keep your chin up girl, things will get better!
They say "that doesn not kill us will only make us stronger"!! I know it sucks when everything seems to be on the uphill but that means that one day you will be at the top and have a nice easy ride down, without all the struggles.
Please share what has been going on medically with with Odie, I'm sure we can help to make things a bit easier. Here on YT there is almost always someone who has been there, done that, and can probably/hopefully give you some pointers.
(((((hugs)))))