Boyfriends can be 'easy come easy go'. Sadly
I had a boyfriend for 10 years, then he was a fiance, then he was gone.
No strings, no alimony, no money, no nothing.... just gone. Like that! Luckily I have a nice career myself and can support myself so i didnt have to move back home or anything, I actually bought my own townhouse and went back to college pt nights so I can get my degree finally.
You seem like maybe you MIGHT be interested in doing the doggy clothing and accessories, why not try to work through the initial 'no interest' and see if you gain interest as your creations take form?
Sometimes we don't realize how much we really do like something until we see the finished product!
In this day & age, I cannot advocate enough to young woman to take control and responsibility of your own life. You have no idea how woman had to struggle in the past to earn the rights to get the life we can have now. I know this was not the direction you intended your post to go but you cannot seriously jump on and say "im 20, don't like to work, can't finish a project and Im bored, what can I do with my days?" when MOST of the women on here are hardworking or have families and plenty to fill their days with household chores and raising kids. You are going to get the advice to get your life in order. Find what makes you happy and persue it. You also need to work on your self-esteem, try getting some good self-help books or maybe seeing a therapist. You ARE a smart, wonderful, young girl FULL of potential and who can do anything she wants! You just need to see that for yourself!