[celstu1]

Im sorry to hear this. Sometimes 2 people who were together when they were so young, grow apart instead of together. I met my ex when I was 19 and we lasted until I was 28. I fought for us also, he didn't care really, wanted to drink and party his life away. We bought a house and I thought he would finally settle down. Nope! After almost 10 years with him, it was decided to not move forward. Initially it was the hardest thing I EVER had to face. I didnt marry him so I didnt get divorced, but it felt like a divorce. We had assets that had to be legally split using a lawyer. At the time I wanted to just curl up in a ball and never move again. We sold the house and in my daze I somehow bought a townhouse, moved and got my 2 new puppies. (within days of each other) and literally died on my couch for months. I had friends but I didnt want to see them.

I went to work, went home, cried and tried to crochet for months. haha I never learned how to make one thing! HAHA

But slowly life started coming back to me. It will take time. But from my perspective and the way I feel now. The initial pain, although extreme fades ... but the day to day pain of being in a relationship with someone who didnt love me enough would have stuck around and make me unhappy FOREVER! So for me, getting out was the best thing I did for myself. I tried too hard for too long to save that relationship. Here I am 3 years later almost and a WHOLE new person.

Its a personal trial and a true test of your strength. Gain some strength from women around you who have gone through this. They can teach you so much. Shy away from those in rosy relationships for awhile, they won't understand at all. I had to turn away from my best friend of 15 years at the time while going through this because she couldn't understand and I felt that she did not even try. She had a new baby with her boyfriend and her life was just peachy. Oh well.. it happens.

Take care hun and make sure this is truely what you want. If you as young as I think you are, then you have a long life ahead of you with or without this man. Make sure you choose yourself FIRST, you are the only one who has to live with YOU every single day! No regrets!!