I know your pain all too well, and I'm SO sorry
I blamed myself for a long time for my Starr's death, but it did nothing but make the pain unbearable for far too long
Please don't blame yourself, you did all you could for him. I'm sorry that the vet didn't see what was going on with your baby, our vet was horrible too and it makes it so much harder knowing that they could have been saved. I know. But in time you must let go of the "what if's" and just remember all the good times you had together and know that you WILL see him again someday and how sweet that will be
My heart breaks for you and I wish I could take the pain away. Only time can lessen it, let yourself cry and grieve, and then release it and eventually you'll be able to think and talk about your baby with a smile.
