Well first off she didn't want anyone from the hospital to take care of her, she wanted her grandson to do it. I fully understand that. We were actually lined up with jobs in MD back in Sept and were moving down to MD, but thats when she found out her cancer came back and she begged us to stay. So we did, we stayed because she needed us. No not everyone is cut out to be a caretaker and I can't tell you how many times Mike was fustrated or annoyed by being called so much. We have gone over our minutes twice in the past because she called us so many times. Plus our batteries died in a day.
Two puppies weren't part of our plan, but when the other two in the litter died, she told us to keep them both, which we did, and we love them more than anything.
She's had cancer for LONG time now. It's coming to an end. She can't get up by herself anymore, and she hardly eats anything. She needs to be on oxygen all the time. Plus despite it all, she is still smoking. Why? Because she knows and we all know she doesn't have long left. She can't remember hardly anything anymore either. It all came fast and hard and now its really hard.
Mike loves his grandmother, he won't show it but I KNOW he wants to cry, I know he does, but he won't. He offered to take care of her, and she told him she needed him all day, everyday. Thats what she got.
Everything is going to get better for us, I know it will. We have been through so much in the past three years that I myself don't even know how we are still together. |