[llcornell]

I posted here for the 1st time a few weeks ago. My 15.5 year old baby had her hip dislocated. Before doing surgery the vet wanted a huge array of tests to determine her health before the hip surgery. All tests came back showing she was in great health and we went ahead with the hip the surgery on 4/23 and she recovered amazingly fast, within days was using her leg and had her spunk back, on her follow up visit to the vet he said she was healing like he had never seen before she had full range of motion and was putting all her weight on it. I felt so good about our decision. Then last monday 5/5 Maggie seemed kinda tired and wouldnt eat much but drank water and the same with tues so wed I took her to the vet and they did a blood test. Results were she was in kidney failure, we put her on an IV and thurs we went in to visit her and they said her blood tests showed improvement but she wouldnt look at me she kinda tried to get away from me it was the strangest behavior in 15 years she has never done what she did that day I stayed for a while and the vet suggested another 24 hours of IV fluid to see if she improved even more. Friday they called me "to come in and and make a decision on her quality of life" which they said would be poor and very short? I came in and she cuddled right up to me completly opposite from the day before. They suggested euthinasia because they could do no more for her. We put her down that day. Im so confused and hurt and I question so many things like would she have been ok if I had taken her in mon or tues and she could have started the IV sooner? Was she telling me she wanted to go on thurs and I tortured her another 24 hours in the ER on IV's until fri? Her last month of her life she spent in that stupid ER clinic with a million tests and then died there. How did she go from healthy to gone so fast. They tested her kidneys and they came back good before the surgery? How could it change so fast? They say it was coincidence but? Its been a week that she's been gone. I cant stop crying I feel like it will never get better and I know people tell me it will but she was everything to me. The house is so empty. I have no other pets or kids. How will it get better? I lost my little baby.