Thanks for the nice messages girls. I've been having a couple of blue days. It seems to be getting harder at the moment, rather than easier.
I'm an actress and so I'm not always at work, which is why so much of time was spent with Bubbles. Whenever I'd get called for work I'd have to check that he'd be ok and that someone would be around for him. I got called fr work today and stopped for a moment to think whether anyone would be around to take care of Bubbles. Then I remembered that he isn't here. It's those moments that just cut me in half.
I'm really feeling the pain these last few days. I'm starting to feel really empty and lonely without him. I think it's wierd also that people around me are moving on better than I am and so we are no longer all in that period of grief.
It's just very strange to have complete lack of control over how you feel. I miss my baby so much. |