It's been 3 months now since I lost Zack and I thought it had got easier. I've dealt with his ashes scattered some and then put the remainder in the back garden where he used to like to lie in the son. I still miss him everyday and talk about him each day.
I've been having problems though just recently - I can't cope at work - everything seems to much, and I have pressure going on at home with my mum being ill and I cry over the slightest thing. I've just been reading about grief and depression - The bargaining stage where you think could I have done something more - I've done that and then it mentions Depression which I feel reading the article is where I'm somewhere in between with Anger as I'm so angry at my manager at work at the moment - I don't want to be there - he makes these comments and I would normally think you idiot but now they're getting to me and it has me in tears and then I'm angry. I did phone a free confidential service today at work as I don't feel I'm coping. It made me realise what I'm going through is still grief but I really don't know how else to get through this. I think some people just think it's only a dog but he was real and I loved him and it really hurts.
Thanks for listening to me. |