[LullaBelle]

Sorry this is going to be a bit long I didn't realize how much I had to say.


Okay so in a few weeks Hubby and I are going to FL for vacation. His parents have invited us to vacation with them in Coco Beach at their time share. We will be away for two weeks and during those two weeks my Grand Parents (who are totaly in love with out little LullaBelle) are going to be taking care of her for us.
Situation solved right?
WRONG! We had the same arangment with my in laws for vacation and my grand parents with LullaBelle but this time instead of the usual mommy separation anxiety from my little fur baby I am in a dead panic!

It all started with my dreams. I have these dreams (this part is always the same) that we drop Bella and all her info, food, clothes, papers, pads, toys you name it every thing she will need and want while we are gone, off with her Great woof grand parents; and when we get to having fun on our vacation something bad always happens. Its always the same situation but different bad things happen. I get THE CALL!
In one dream she got hit by a car and dies, in another dream it was she got sick and had to get put to sleep, in another dream she gets attacked by another dog and ends up getting hurt or put down.

Every time I wake up in a dead panic. I have to hold Bella and make sure that she is okay after every dream just to calm my self down. Bella usually sleeps right through my holding her b/c she could sleep through a train wreck.
So at least she doesn't feel my stress about it!

Hubby thought I was just over reacting at first but I can't help my dreams. I get so emotional when I even think about what my life would be like with out her. I know she can't live forever and neither can I. I am not that nieve I understand death and loss but I don't have any children and she is as close as I am gonna get for a while. I am still young and so is hubby. I just love her to peaces!
I feel like my heart brakes during every dream and when I wake up I have to put it back together. After the first few dreams I started to realize that I am emotionally exausted for a few hours after these dreams.

I didn't have this problem last year. I had the usually anxiety about being away from her for so long, but she was so happy to see us when we got back and we know that she had so much fun with my grandparents. (who spoil her rotten!)

I guess I am just confused as to why if i didn't have these anxieties last time why I am having them this time? Is this normal? Has this ever happened to others? I feel like my dreams are so real and the emotional pain is real too until I wake up and my heart is pounding and I can feel her and she is okay.
I don't know and I am not sure if I expect anybody else to know but I guess I just need to get it out of me.
Thanks for listening and if anybody has had these types of dreams or anxieties I would appreciate some input or advice.