Oh Lori, I am so very sorry to hear about your Gramma...I will keep her and you and you family in my prayers. The video link you posted was beautiful and almost immediately brought tears to my eyes; the part about the parent repeating themselves hit close to home...it made me want to hug my mom right that moment. Thankfully she is still here with us as her 94th birthday draws near.
Do not feel that you abandoned your family just because you are not near them. When my brother lived in Texas when I was going through a tough time, he gave me a wall plaque with this poem...maybe it will make you feel a little closer to them....
A FAMILY IS LOVE
There's a special kind of closeness
that only families know
It starts with early childhood trust
and deepens as you grow...
There's a special kind of comfort
in knowing your family's there,
to love and understand you,
to listen and to care...
Of all the treasures life may bring,
your family means the most,
And whether near or far apart
that love will hold you close.
I have loved that poem from the first time I read it; it still hangs on my wall today.
((((((Hugs to you Lori)))))...if there is anything I can do to help, let me know.